Who do we decide to be among us? I know for sure we don't and when
I tell myself that it is true. Angels or devils which one would
you rather be? For me its a hard decision to say so, I won't. I've
told you of my guardian angel in some of my stories. For all my
life I can sense things around me but never able to see it or feel
it. Sometimes the things I sense becomes so sensitive that I start
to get a ringing noise in my ears. Sometimes I keep having a re-
ocurring dream that I can fly however with out wings. For some odd
reason one special night a bird was chirping during the midnight
til' morning and that was when my friends mom died. She had killed
her self. When she died it was at the beginning of the birds song
I would say. It was a nightgale that was probably mourning her
death. Though I knew something had gone terribly wrong that night
before she died. The next night I had a dream of were I went to
heaven and hell. Heaven is exactly as people imagine it; it is
beautiful with blue skies, clouds to walk on, gates of gold,
people everywhere, and angels everywhere. Although I didn't get to
meet god, I did however met my gaurdian angel. It took me so long
to figure out that I am my gaurdian angel. After seeing my own
image as an angel I saw that my wings were different than other
angels. The others had feathered like hair on their wings. Mine
was flesh like with bits of hair on it, somewhat of a demons
wings. After that i went to see hell but I found it odd that I saw
hell as a quiet place. The image I saw was not a lake of fire but
a lake of blood inside a cavern made of flesh. Human and angel
skulls was its structures made out of and machine like things were
given life to; for example an elevator. I saw people dreaming of
their last moments over and over again but none ever seem to
awake. Then I saw my own image again and there it hit me, was I in
spirit to be both demon and angel? Then the dream continued as I
was guided back to heaven and there an angel glowed so bright that
I awoke. I thought that it was the longest dream I had ever had
but, it was in actual only three hours long. I never could find
the answers to the whole dream because it is still incomplete. I
still have some more dreams that connect to this one and i can
sense things that connects to the dreams. Life goes on without a
trace of existence. Only that I know this much for now. But I hope
to find the answers one day and then I will decide if my gaurdian
is a bad angel or a good demon and vice versa.